Happy Due Date

Our first due date came and went this past week. I knew it was coming up, and then somehow it slipped past. And I'm okay with that. I looked back on everything that has happened in the past nine months, all of the things that probably wouldn't have happened if we would have had the baby still. Jordan and I have both grown in our careers, and as employees. We made the decision to move into a bigger place. We decided to finally get a dog. Every step has been in the right direction. I'm not going to tell you it's been easy. For a while, for a good long while, every day was a struggle. When our second loss happened it all just became numbing. But life kept going, as it does. We learned to live our lives differently, to embrace this extra time and use it to grow as individuals. It has definitely been an eye opening experience. Having a baby was something I took for granted, something I thought would easily happen again when we were ready. Now we know better. 

Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive through all of this! We really do have the greatest family and friends :)

Happy Due Date Baby Pike

08/25/13

 

Pre-Pregnancy Bucket List

Happy late Mother's Day! Hope you all had a fantastic weekend. I had to work ( Mother's Day/weekend is the busiest time for servers...) all weekend and am not very happy about yesterday. Aside from that it was a pretty good day. We had a late lunch at Steak and Shake, where I was only mildly glutened. We then went to the movie "station" and saw The Croods. I didn't think I would like it based off of the trailer, but I bawled like a baby. I recommend it.

The worst part of Mother's day was being slapped in the face with all of the happy families with their new babies and huge pregnant bellies. There was one lady who looked so much like me, and what I imagined I would have looked like pregnant this time around, that I almost started hysterically crying while making drinks. She had the cutest belly, the perfect top knot, and the exact same dress and shoes I already own. It was instantly heartbreaking. But all of that aside, I took a page from Katie Bower's book and decided to suck it up. Being pregnant is great and all, but I'm going to spend the summer doing other fun things. Hence the Pre-pregnancy Bucket List.

 

First up is a trip to King's Island. Jordan and I went to Universal Studio's for our honeymoon and it was the best trip ever. We have been dying to go back ever since. We both used to go to King's Island a lot when we were younger. You know, school trips and such. We bought season passes! Story is only tall enough to get on most of the kid rides. Hopefully we can take her sometime this summer. 

King's Island is about a month away. So, I'm going to be eating a lot of sushi before, and after that. I would eat sushi everyday. I want to eat sushi everyday :) 

We really want to be more settled in our lives before we have another baby. Right now we both want to be promoted, possibly transfer, move into a house and buy a car. Yep, that's a lot.

Disney World. Yes, yes, yes, yes!!!!!!! This is the time to take her! We are really, really, really, hoping to take her next year. As you all know, it's like the biggest deal ever to plan a trip to Disney. And yes, we are starting to save up now (hurry up promotions!)

The rest are pretty self explanatory. I hope to accomplish them all by the end of the summer. Hopefully in time for our anniversary in September.

All you moms-to-be struggling with infertility, what's your pre-pregnancy bucket lists? What would you like to do before getting pregnant? Link up your bucket lists in the comments or just write it out :)

another loss

We had another miscarriage. It was at 5 weeks. I know it's not the same as last time, but it's not nothing either. We had known about this pregnancy for 4 days. We weren't trying for another baby. We weren't ready. But it happened, and then this happened again.

I'm not okay. But I will be. I just need time I guess.

Our Loss

This is my second attempt at writing this post. The first was really sad and negative. That's not what I want to share. I want to share the truth, but in a way that is best for all.

We suffered a miscarriage a little over a week ago. We were 9 weeks 5 days. We had been trying to get pregnant for a few months prior. We were really excited about this pregnancy and as you can imagine just as equally devastated when it ended. It's been a rough week. But we are slowly healing. We're finding normal again. A normal that doesn't involve the baby we thought.

I had a few projects to share on here. Most of which were baby related. We're taking a step back and replanning things now. The same with the WIW posts.

We are going through a tough time, but something that so many others have experienced before. We're mostly just learning how to move on after a loss. 

 We are doing alright. We're getting through it. We are taking this new found time and using it to better ourselves, and our family.

Casey Leigh